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Surrender to the Chaos

Do you ever feel like you’re standing in the middle of a storm and the pieces of your life are swirling and collapsing around you? 

Or is that just me? Lol!

Okay, let’s skip the drama, but sometimes, it really feels this way for me.  My mind feels unhinged and I can’t seem to stop it from going down the rabbit holes of worse case scenarios and impending dooms.  I witness all my darkest internal stories arise from the depths of my

consciousness like Halloween mist, infecting everything in me.  I’m simultaneously in it, and watching it all unfold from afar.  I know it’s not me…that I can shift my thoughts and energy at any time…and yet my feet still feel stuck in the mist.  

I’ve felt this way when finances have felt unstable. 

I felt this way when my daughter was being bullied at school. 

I’ve felt this way when my business has felt shaky and unpredictable.

And more recently, I felt this way when we transitioned into the summer schedule. 

(My kids playing with friends at the park during “Camp Krimitsos” Field Trip Day.)

What’s the Pattern?

To help me calm this storm and find the clear skies, it’s been helpful for me to recognize the patterns that exist in these moments.  Is there a common thing that triggers me? Is there a common emotion I’m feeling? Is there a common habit that occurs? A common thread to the outside events?

When I ask myself those questions, I recognize that these storms occur when I feel unstable or unsure.  When I feel uprooted from my center.  I’m usually out of my usual routines and not spending enough time meditating or journaling. 

How about you?  What patterns do you notice when life feels chaotic? 

The Quick Path to Peace

“I know I just have to surrender to the chaos,” I told a friend last week as I was deep in these feelings.  “The faster I do, the faster I’ll feel peace.” 

We were two weeks into the summer schedule (kids home full time) and work time had felt like it disappeared. On the days when I was ambitious enough to wake up at 4:30am and get a few hours of focused alone time in, I felt so good.  But, the inevitable late nights threw

wrenches in my plans to make that a daily, reliable practice.  

Routines anchor me, so I felt untethered in their absence.

Predictability conserves my energy, so I felt drained without it. 

My work makes me feel connected to my goals and dreams and prosperity, so I felt a little lost with less time for it. 

Disconnected. Uprooted. Unstable.  

These are the emotional patterns I notice in me that trigger the storm of chaos.  

But they’re just that…emotions.  And once I recognize that, I can let them dissolve and remember THE TRUTH.

I am safe.  I am loved.  I am whole. 

I am connected.  Rooted.  Stable.

Right now.  Just as I am. 

Peace is available to me now.

Try that on for a moment.  What comes up for you? 

(A moment of calm at the library during a spontaneous adventure day with my girls.)

Surrender and Have Faith

Surrendering is not giving up.  It’s giving up the illusion of control. It’s leaning into the rhythms of life that exist whether you like it or not.  It’s choosing to flow with the current of the river, rather than trudging upstream.  

But surrendering takes faith.  

A belief that what you need will be provided for you.  That what you want is already yours.  

Maybe this is why we try to control so much. ????????‍♀️Because we fear that our needs and wants will not be provided for us.  Because we don’t fully trust ourselves or the divine to make good on our dreams. 

But if we’re willing to pry our fingers away from it all, we could open ourselves up to the beauty in the chaos.  We could give life a chance to surprise and delight us with the gifts she provides as we surrender to its current. Most importantly, we could completely dissolve the anxiety

and stress that we hold trying to make it all work the way our brain tells us it should. 

We could be free.  And be one with the peace that exists in all of it. 

This week, I finally surrendered to the chaos of summer schedule.  And I’ve been surprised at how many pockets of time have opened up for me to do everything I want to do.  Not perfectly.  But naturally and abundantly.  I’ve felt the stress melt away as I’ve simply trusted that everything will happen in its time, and that my priority is to remember my truth:

I am safe.  I am loved.  I am whole. 

I am connected.  Rooted.  Stable.

Right now.  Just as I am. 

Peace is available to me now.

All the love, Beautiful, 

???? Katie

(My girl demanding a tickle attack while I was working on this article. 😉 Perfect snapshot of me being in a moment of “chaos,” but choosing to surrender and trust. After pausing to tickle her for a few minutes, she happily went away so I could finish.)

Namaste, Beautiful…????

Katie Krimitsos
Creator of the Women’s Meditation Network
katie@womensmeditationnetwork.com